life happens outside of your comfort zone, also, filofax? (170626)

hiiiii

so it happened again. i was writing a post a couple of days ago and then it didn't save. i should really start writing these on google docs first or something but i can't resist not typing with this font lol. anyway, how are you? i hope you're good <3

lots to update you on! i've been to london twice in one week! one for my bestie's birthday which i was a little nervous to go to because i didn't really know anyone else who was going and then again, with the same person lol to a rave of all places. if you know me at all, or can read the vibes of this here blog, a rave is probably the last place you'd expect to see me at. and you'd be correct. but i actually had quite a nice time! it was a caribbean day rave, so things started and finished early, there was places indoors to sit down and it wasn't too packed so ideal event tbh. they only played songs that we knew for like 20 minutes though :/ but still, it was an opportunity to step out of my comfort zone, twice! and it was fun.

unfortunately, as the saying goes, i think life happens outside of your comfort zone. i could have easily said no to both of those things as it would have been the more comfortable and "safe" thing to do but my life would be kinda boring if i said no to everything wouldn't it, and more importantly, i'd be letting down the people i care about. i think i need to give myself more credit. without going into too much detail, i feel like i have a very active head. i don't necessarily have racing thoughts but i feel like every moment of my life, when i'm not at home, comes with some running commentary in the background, don't say that, look away now give them eye contact again, people usually say this here, was that weird to say? why did you do that? so naturally, staying at home would be easier! but then what would i write about in my journal :)

anyway, bestie's birthday was a real good time and the rave was fun too! i'm not running to my next one and it did take a couple days to recover from both those events, but i think my cup is full again.

also, my friend told me that she got herself a filofax and i've been thinking of them ever since. my birthday is coming up and at first i thought i wanted to buy myself a samsung z flip 7 since i have the 4 and i really want that bigger cover screen. but i keep looking at my 4 and i don't want to let her go! my partner bought it for me and it was such a huge surprise, every time i look at it it makes me so happy :') and it's the PERFECT shade of pink, like the background of this page!!! they don't make phone like that anymoreeee so i genuinely don't want to give it away for a trade in. but then there would be no point in having two phones like that. idk what to do!! then i thought about getting myself a steam deck since i have so many games on steam i don't play because we don't have a desktop computer anymore and i didn't love having to sit at a desk to game anyway, but those are like £650 and that might be a bit too much for something i know i will play for a month and leave on the shelf for the next 3. but then i remembered -- a filofax. or at least an equivalent since i don't think they make pink ones lol.

so i'm about to spend my day off researching different leather cover thingys, the right ring binder size and all that fun stuff and i can't wait. i think i'm going to get myself that for my birthday and one of those mini printers that print from your phone. ooh i can't wait for that. that's a good gift right there. imagine all my little pictures in my journal like that! so personalised! why haven't i done this sooner!

okay, i'm signing off because i have lots to do today. i made another template for my mine and my bestie's 12 week year (we're doing another one) and she loved it and said i should try and sell them so i'm going to look into that today... and also, planner research hehe.

okay byeeee

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