i think i'm a writer with a part-time job and that's the goal right? also i'm v tired (030626)

helloooo i am very tired!

so i had work every day from tuesday to saturday last week which was absolutely exhausting especially since the store was very busy for some reason. and then i went to the arsenal parade in london on sunday which is so random for me as i know next to nothing about football (learning though and not hating it) and it was a nice family outing if anything! but now i am simply falling apart. and the week begins again. i have a five-hour shift today, wish me luck.

also a quick hello to any new people reading this! <3 i posted a note on substack that went a bit wild so i suspect there are a few more visitors here now, special welcome to you! bookmark my site if you want updates like the good ole days hehe.

i'm starting to feel that sensation that something is coming to the surface, the feeling of a new story to work on. i love it. i guess this is how i write? if i don't have any inspiration, i just can't do it. i can't force it. but certain things happen in my life and i think what if the world was upside down and this happened or what if i was a completely different person and i did this instead and i get ideas, a vague storyline is born and then i get the urge to write it all down. that's what happened with the last story i wrote (which is on my secret substack that i'm still too scared to share ahhhh). that one started off as something completely different to what it was going to be so i'm expecting something similar with this one. i just need a jumping off point you know?

anyway, after writing this, i'm hoping i can make a start on that, all before my shift later today as well. there are also tiny embers of a substack post idea for this week forming about what it's like going from a corporate job in central london to retail in norfolk, and how i actually might prefer this version of my life. i don't miss the office at all. i make way less in retail of course but our mortgage here is half the rent we were paying in london it doesn't feel like there has been too drastic of a change there. i get paid weekly which is a recipe for disaster so i have decided to put that money aside every week and then "pay myself" at the end of every month like i would have been in my office job, otherwise that money would just disappear every week lol. and even though i am exceptionally tired this week, i have more time to actually write and maybe finally get that short story collection going that i've been yearning to write my entire life pretty much. it feels good to make some money in a little part time job (that i don't hate and actually kind of like?) and spend my non-working hours writing. i'm practically doing the aspiring actor works in a cafe thing. in a way, goals have already been attained.

right i won't spend too long here today, i have ideas to materialise!!!! also i finally updated my booksta on here so give that a look if you were interested. i did want to write book reviews here with a bit more depth but i left it too long between reading and writing about it. hopefully i can write a little more about the next book i read oops.

okay byeeee

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