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thinking about 2026... i think i'm kind of tired of keeping up with pop culture, social media discourse, culture trends and the like. i think i want to concentrate on learning new things next year. currently, i feel like i'm just reading the same things over and over. nothing feels new. i don't care about talking about doomscrolling and social media addictions and whatever an analogue bag is. i'm tired of all the trends. i just want to do things now and not worry about whether it's aesthetic or cute or keeping up with what someone my age should be doing. i want to be out of the loop.

i really like the libby app and how you can read new issues of magazines on there. i think i'd like to read magazines again. one that really caught my attention the other week was new scientist magazine! i would have brushed this off as something that wasn't within my interests but there was lots of really cool information in there. it felt so fresh and new and challenging. philosophy now magazine also seems interesting as well as noema and even something called green witchcraft. how fun! i think i just need a break from the substack articles that all seem a bit samey right now. maybe i need a refresh too who knows.

i'm looking forward to reading more about psychology and consciousness. i think that will be my area of focus next year. i'll try to stick to one thing this year and learn as much as i can. i won't put too much pressure on myself either like i have to read this many books or study for this many hours a week. i'd just like to read a couple of books on the subject and take some notes, that's all. if i'm feeling really inspired, perhaps i'll try to write an essay on a specific topic i come across.

i feel like i say this every year too, but i would really like to be a podcast person. i'm kind of stuck between not wanting to fill every silence with a podcast or video but also trying to find ways to listen to podcasts. i simply cannot multitask with something that is strictly audio. it's like my brain forgets i'm engaging with a piece of media because i can't see it. i think this means i'm a very visual person. i do like surrounding myself with nice things to look at. anyway.

i'm going to make a list on notion of how i'd like 2026 to look. i did one for 2025 but half of those things didn't get done because i wasn't living somewhere i really liked. now that my circumstances have changed, i'm ready to put myself out there and do things like join a sports team and fitness classes and stuff. exciting!

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