i actually don't hate my job (yet), writing short fiction again, publishing goals (020526)

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i just finished another shift at my retail job and it was another fun one! it's so crazy to me that i actually like a retail job but the people there are so nice and the hours aren't too bad! (it's all seeming a bit too good to be true at the moment, i'm hoping things don't go sideways…) i got 10k steps in today as well which i am so pleased with. that's the good thing about working retail instead of an office job too, the exercise! the lack of sitting down staring at a screen all day! god i hated that so much working in an office. and plus, people here are much kinder than they are in london. i don't want to jinx anything so i'll just stop there lol. 

i handed in my preferred working hours (which i was able to choose?? wild?) and actively chose to work on a saturday partly because i thought surely i had to as this is retail and partly because i'd rather work on a weekend than have a dead (and long) shift during a weekday, like who's buying clothes and doing hordes of returns on a monday morning. sorry but i need a busy atmosphere to work in. i have always hated the idea of waiting for the weekend, thanking god it's friday and all that crap. i hate the idea of wasting the week away and only living for the weekend. for the past few months, i've been getting the majority of my work done on a sunday, and it's felt quite nice. weekdays, weekends, they're just all days to me. none of it means anything. but i will admit, lounging in my garden under the sun engrossed in a good book on a tuesday early afternoon does hit the spot, especially when i think about how i used to be stuck in a dark office somewhere at this time. there is something about weekday lounging i guess. 

so i'm just thinking about how grateful i am for this job right now, that the people are really lovely and friendly, and i feel like i can do this job well (apart from answering the phone i'm still actively avoiding that lol) now all i need to do is rack my brain for another short story idea! 

i'm thinking to aim for shorter ones this time, around 2k words instead of the 10k i managed to do last time. this way i can send them in to literary magazines and stuff! ooh that would be so cool. i've had work published before, essays and poetry, but never my fiction. that is another level of vulnerability for me. having someone like my work enough to publish it and have other people read it would be monumental and crazy. i think i'll make that a goal for this year actually—get a short story published in a literary magazine. how exciting! waiting patiently for inspiration to strike :)

whoever is reading this right now, i hope you're having a good day. i hope you feel the same way about life like i do right now and if not, don't worry, your luck is about to change!! i downright hated my life merely a few months ago! i'm going to enjoy the views from up here on this roller coaster while i still can :’)

i think i'll go to town tomorrow. i'm still mad that waterstones didn't hire me so i guess i'll let go of that grudge and have a wander in there. oh and i really need to buy a sun hat, the weather has been so beautiful lately! i am making considerably less than i was in my office job so no crazy spending for me (i hope)

okay byeeeee

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